The ‘911’ singer opens up about the long-lasting agony and trauma of being sexually assaulted as a teenager in the debut episode of Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey’s Apple TV+ docuseries, The Me You Can’t See.
“I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off,’” Gaga said. “And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and I just froze and – I don’t even remember. The person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner.”
Deciding not to disclose the alleged abuser, Gaga went on: “I understand this #Metoo movement, I understand that some others feel really comfortable with this, and I do not, I do not ever want to face that person again. This system is so abusive and so dangerous.”
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Gaga goes on to say that she was diagnosed with PSTD after being admitted to the hospital with chronic pain years later.
“First, I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. Then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after,” she explained. “And I realized it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parents’ house, because I was vomiting, and sick. Because I’d been being abused, I was locked away in a studio for months.”
Gaga also disclosed that she was having a “total psychotic break” in 2019, around the time she won an Oscar for her role in “A Star Is Born.”
“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl,” she said. You can come back from things like that, but when it hits you really hard, it can change you. I went through a really crazy time in my head that I still work on and I’m trying to make sure that I give back with that experience instead of just, I don’t know, locking it away and faking it. It’s a really very real thing to feel like there’s a black cloud that is following you wherever you go telling you that you are worthless and should die.”
Gaga has maintained that she is on the mend after years of dealing with her mental health.
“Even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad,” she said. “And when I say feel bad, I mean want to cut, think about dying, wondering if I’m ever gonna do it.”
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