Jamal Edwards passed away while holding his mother’s hand.

Speaking on her return to Loose Women, Brenda Edwards who recently lost her 31-year-old-son Jamal shared that knowing she was present for her son in his final moments gave her some comfort.

Brenda made her first appearance on the show following the death of her son, Jamal, on Monday’s edition, which featured a pre-recorded chat with her. Brenda’s interview with Coleen Nolan marks the first time she has talked publicly about Jamal’s death, as well as her first reunion with her co-stars.

SBTV founder, Jamal Edwards, died unexpectedly in February at the age of 31 after a possible heart attack.

Speaking to Coleen, Brenda claimed she was “doing okay” and “taking each day as it comes” in an honest and emotional chat.

She went on to recount the night of Jamal’s passing, saying:

“I was with him. His sister was with us. We were all at home. It was sudden and it was unexpected and he went into a cardiac arrest and he passed with me holding his hand,” she said.

Adding, “I get a little bit of comfort from knowing that I was with him.”

Brenda also noted that the moment was “a vision that I’m never going to forget.”

She goes on to describe how she’s “keeping” it “going,” saying that she wakes up each morning with a house full of Jamal’s pictures and greets him good morning and goodnight.

Brenda also touched on the “overwhelming” support from loved ones and that she was comforted by the fact that he meant so much to so many people, sayind that “He’s definitely here.”

While Jamal’s passing was untimely, he had left instructions for how he wanted the ceremony to be handled, including his funeral, or as Brenda referred to it, his “homegoing.”

“He was born in Luton, we went back to Luton and had his homegoing there,’ she recounted.

“Everyone wore blue or white, the music was there, he had live entertainment. It was really really lovely. When we laid him to rest it was really beautiful.”

Brenda goes on to discuss their new charity, the Jamal Edwards Self Belief Trust, which will generate funds to fight homelessness, help individuals with mental health challenges, and educate young people with “essential life skills.”

Brenda expressed her wish to return to the programme in a teaser clip of the interview, which was released earlier this week.

The clip shows Brenda saying to Coleen, “It has been great, having the ladies there. That is something that has been a big part of my life and the kids’ lives. I need to return.”

Following Jamal’s passing, Brenda issued a statement via Good Morning Britain, which read:

“It is with the deepest heartache that I confirm that my beautiful son Jamal Edwards passed away yesterday morning after a sudden illness.

“Myself, his sister Tanisha, and the rest of his family and friends are completely devastated. He was the centre of our world.”

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